Quote of the day

“Life is short, don't waste time worrying about what people think of you Hold on to the ones that care, in the end they will be the only ones there.”

Quote of the day

“It takes more courage to reveal insecurities than to hide them, more strength to relate to people than to dominate them, more 'manhood' to abide by thought-out principles rather than blind reflex. Toughness is in the soul and spirit, not in muscles and an immature mind.”

Alex Karras

Quote of the day

"Small opportunities are often the beginning of great enterprises."

Demosthenes

Quote of the Day

Sometimes it's good to let go on the pursuit of happiness, and just be happy

Quote of the day

A dream is your creative vision for your life in the future.

You must break out of your current comfort zone and become

comfortable with the unfamiliar and the unknown.
Denis Waitley

Quote of the day

You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through. Rosalynn Carter

Quote of the day

Don't Dream It Be It -- Rocky Horror :-)

Angels Path

This is a video I did in AE. I’m so happy and thankful that Chris is showing me how to do this… I want to do more now!!!

 

Quote of the Day

"You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life." -- Albert Camus

Fire of my Past

October 23, 2010

I get a message from my daughter, something tragic has happened, the silver hanger shed has burnt down, and there was nothing salvageable. I had to stop for a second to realize what has just happened. Everything that was markers of my past from my first apartment, my beginning pieces of art that I created, and everything back to when I was born, is now ashes blowing in the wind.

 

More than 30 years of history has been changed in one day. What use to be bins that sat on storage racks filled with art work, photography from photo shoots, art installations are now replaced with crocked burnt railings.

 

I felt as if this is a devastating moment, but it was time to do something to replace the sadness. I realized that this moment in time, was the end of all that kept me to a past filled with sorrow, depression that outweighed the positive. I was not bound to these things, but now I can choose to keep my memories that helped me shape who I am today, and real the value of cherishing them.

 

This is my change, brought by fire. I will stand up and build positive memories that will outweigh the sadness. I will share them with others so they too can have positive things to cherish. It is time to build for the future, and be thankful for the past.

 

Embrace

I miss his loving embrace...
I miss how his energy would warm me up, deep down to my soul.
I miss his gentle touch
I miss his passion
I miss every moment, every movement, and ever breath
I miss his embrace

 

The Push

We sometimes have to fight ourselves…

It is a personal push to become who we truly are because of what we were told by outside forces saying who we should be.

New Art Work – In Flight

We are in flight to get somewhere some how.

Another 9/11

What could bring back fear … another 9/11 attack with a twist. I had a dream where I walked in a city where old brick buildings were mixed with new buildings like Washington DC, or London. The sun was bright, seemed almost brighter than normal. I had taught a class where I told art students the way to handle themselves at artist, but now the day was over. I walked along the banking district past a café, where people sat outside, and then an explosion happened in front of me. I fell to the ground and was shocked by what was going on. I notice a cut on my finger, from a piece of glass, but I didn’t give much thought.

 

I got up and turned around to see a helicopter crash into a building causing another explosion. I was scared but I knew right now is time to find a place safe. I proceeded down the street where there was a park, and then right in front of me another helicopter turned the corner and was proceeding to crash, but this one was different. The helicopter stopped and did something as if it was bowing to me. “Chaos”, I whispered to myself. I knew it was the creature I created earlier out to do what it does best. After the bow the helicopter began to go down and crashed on the sidewalk where people were. I ran into the park and through the baseball field to the other side, screaming for people to follow me if they wanted to live. Then like that I woke up, with a cut on my finger, where it looks like a piece of glass had cut me, but there was nothing sharp around that would have caused that kind of damage.

The woman of Ifa

The woman of Ifa, she would come to me and sit me down so that I would learn valuable lessons. She only had to say them once for me to understand and stick on me.

She taught me about love and marriage, and making sure to just slow down before going down the aisle. She taught me to be open about how I felt, but always be respectful. She taught me to watch what I say, what I do, and how I go about things, because it has a greater effect on others. I found myself looking back and see that just even me upset, I don’t wish any harm on people even when people are so negative you would think I would. She has help transformed me into a calmer and happier person, even with my moments.

 

The woman of Ifa would sit me down, and show me her world. I had always love when she read the stories to me, every time I met with her, I was always waiting for the stories, and maybe a taste of refried beans mixture, gin and kola nuts. Then one day she showed me how to read the oracle and the stories it turned out to be last time I seen her in this world.

 

I couldn’t understand why that one day she showed me everything, but now I do. Her words are so much haunting to me, as like she knew what was going to happen.I remember her smiling at me after reading me a story, then telling me how I was going to be successful, and where to find my husband. As well as when I finally am successful to make sure when I get there, to bring her back something.

 

I find myself now working harder than ever, so I know she will be proud of me. I miss her dearly. Happy Birthday Emelinda!

The Hum

He comes close to me… I can feel his essence behind me. I tense up in an anxious state. My toes curl, my heart race. I cannot move, I can only smile and wait for the hum in my heart and my soul to take over completely

Vampires lost

I had a dream where I was in a sunny bright island in the middle of a river where both sides had paradise. I knew I was in the center of paradise, and I had invited along so many people to come be in this happiness. My husband was there basking in it to. We celebrated life and love, and it was just truly amazing. My husband and I decided to go to one of the mainland sides to see how everything was doing. Inside the market place, I felt something was off and so did he.

 

There in a dark place of the marketplace was a woman and man, who seemed hollowed, and dead, vampires. I locked eyes with her, and knew she was there to destroy. I yelled to him, run, as well as everybody else. They began attacking the people, as I continued running telling people to go back to the island to be safe. We got on the boat and returned to the island. I managed to get so many people hidden from these vampires.

 

The vampire could finally showed up to the island in the river, and I was making sure I was ready to face them down. The woman walked in first and I noticed she was the head of all this anger and chaos. She had blond wavy hair and she was truly lost and empty, she wanted to take my heart and soul. “This is paradise. This is happiness, you cannot take this away from anyone! You will not get what you truly need from here!” That enraged her to go after me, and her male counter part went after my husband, but my husband managed to fight back. We both ran to the boats and crossed over to mainland again with the vampires following.

 

I ran to the gates of the cemetery and as if the gates knew who I was and they opened up. My husband and I ran inside a tomb that had opened to us, then the vampires followed us as well, but since I knew the tombs we were able to get out while the vampires got lost down there. I noticed they had children vampires, I grabbed them and brought them into the light, to help change them back. People who hid on the island came to where we were, and helped close the gate doors of the tomb. The vampire woman came screaming to the gates, “You cannot do this!”

 

I looked at her while holding one of the children next to me, “You are in my home. You are in my gates. I tell who comes and goes, and it’s time for you to rest in peace.” For the first time I had compassion for the male vampire since he began to change into a human, but he was still a lost vampire. “The sun shall come up, and the darkness will go back to being just shadows, and you will hide in the shadows until you can find peace.”

Can you really love someone?

Can you really love someone for who they are? When they are out with friends, are you brewing madness because they are not with you? Can you love someone for who they are when you go mad if they compliment someone?

 

Can you love someone without conforming them into what you want? Can you love someone who isn’t what you actually desired in the perfect person?

 

Can you be happy and loving with someone with all their faults? All the little itty bitty things they do that can drive you up the wall? Can you love someone still, after they have hurt you? Can you love someone to let your ego go, and be able to cater to what they want?

 

Can you love someone when they are broke and cannot support you?

 

Maybe another question to ask is…

 

Is it love??

 

Is it love to rage over someone?

Is it love control everything a person does, so they are not themselves?

Is it love to make them do things just for your pleasure only, but forget about them?

Is it love when you say “You own them”?

Is it love when you can not forgive them?

 

I had a dream that I found myself finding out what is true love. I look upon my grandmother who was married to the same man until he died, and I realized most people today, mistake so much as love. We can feel things for people, but to truly let go of ourselves to make sure others are taken care of, is one of the hardest things possible to do. We get so stuck in “My needs, My wants, My desires” we want them to be what we want as if we can customize the person to fit us, but we are forgetting, this is another person with different desires, pursuits, and dreams. To love them would to actually love every part of them, even the ones that not fit what we wanted.

 

We do not own them, but love them. We do not cast them aside but help them with their dreams, and vice versa. There’s so many divorces and break ups, it seems like now a days if you don’t like one thing about a person you say fuck it, on to the next one, instead of working things out with people and moving on to make things stronger. More so as well because we mistake lust for love.  It’s hard to tell the difference now a days when everything is so rushed. I hope one day we can go back to the days where more people can learn to love and work things out… and to just be able to love.

Back to “A”

Our paths, go in so many different directions. People on our paths come and go… some on the other hand come back to us, as if we go from A to B, but then disappear for a while but come back. Sometimes they come back is for a reason and purpose, maybe it’s a lesson we need to learn, or they are suppose to be there for more than what they were to meant to be, or something we need to change in our lives, that attracts them back. It’s as if we go from A, to B to C to D then back to A.

The sheep that said “Party!!” and now it’s your turn

I just felt like posting this, It’s a cool way to find you Chinese Zodiac sign in a little bit more detail

 

I posted mine since I an Earth Sheep/Lamb/Ram/Goat whatever you call it, it’s still a 4 legged creature that goes “BAHHHH”

http://www.tuvy.com/entertainment/chinese_horoscope.htm

 

EARTH LAMB Horoscope
Feb 1, 1919 to Feb 19, 1920
Jan 28, 1979 to Feb 15, 1980

Lamb people have good taste and are quite charming and elegant … and rich. You may find them the center of attention at a stylish dinner party, ravishing all with incomparable wit and bon mots. The opposite is also true: they are often quite shy and sometimes prefer complete anonymity, the quiet life at home with a good book, a roaring fire, and the joys of the palate. A creative flame burns in their lives and you may find them before a canvas experimenting with bright bold genius strokes of paint. Sometimes, they tend to be pessimistic and question the meaning of life, wondering "why they dwell among green mountains." They are quite often deeply religious or spiritual and quite passionate about their work and their belief.

Sweet Potato Soup and Cellophane Noodles are among keys to good health.

 

Earth Lambs are like dancing daffodils, moving with kinetic exuberance and joy. Like all Lambs, these creatures are wonderful to socialize with, you just can't help loving their friendly ways and enthusiasm for living. They make lemonade out of lemons, velvet out of porcupines, and find serendipity everywhere. All their friends and colleagues get caught up with this passion. As you can imagine, they make the best of traveling companions. Earth Lambs are honorable in all their dealings; they roll up their sleeves and do whatever it is that must be done. They know true contentment because they can think of yesterday without regret and tomorrow without fear. Earth Lambs love good books and spend many happy hours seeking treasures in used bookstores. This serious nature also applies to their college years and careers, which they pursue with utmost dedication, hard work, and diligence. At some point in later life, they are rewarded with unexpected financial fortune. What a cozy twosome the Earth Lamb makes with a love partner. Relationships are filled with exquisite warmth, gentleness, and tenderness, with magical threads of sensuality taking them on beautiful carpet rides.

 

Famous Lamb People: Sir Laurence Olivier, Josephine Bonaparte, Margot Fonteyn, Mikhail Gorbachev, Toni Morrison, Leonard Nimoy, Pierre Trudeau, Katharine Hepburn, Boris Yeltsin

Can’t understand why

We must learn to live together as brothers or perish together as fools. -- Speech in St. Louis, Missouri, March 22, 1964]

 

This is a quote from the great MLK jr. It lingered in my mind when I saw a video about the march Vs. Glenn Beck rally. It was suppose to be about how Glenn is war and chaos, and the other people were just peace. You saw a man cursing and “fuck you” all over the place, but it didn’t give a reason why. You saw a man pointing like “bang bang your dead” but it doesn’t show you what he’s reacting to, but I know that most people will just see it as hate and not even know what is the real truth.

 

I find myself wondering what happened to the old days. Where peaceful people were truly peaceful people. I see some say they are, and in the next minute they are talking how we must go to war against others, race, or religion. They get on television for fame and money, but not to truly spreading peace or positivity. They aggravate people to no end to get some kind of negative emotion so they can put themselves in a better light.

 

When I ask to list peacemakers, it ends up Mother Theresa, MLK, Princess Di, but what about people who are alive today?

 

I seen more hate now a days than anything else, and it does scare me. Who will be the next peacemaker, that when you see them, you know it’s peace & happiness they seek and nothing more?

 

We will have to repent in this generation not merely for the hateful words and actions of the bad people but for the appalling silence of the good people.

-- "Letter from Birmingham Jail," April 16, 1963

 

We who engage in nonviolent direct action are not the creators of tension. We merely bring to the surface the hidden tension that is already alive. -- "Letter from Birmingham Jail," April 16, 1963

Chaotic Order

Even through Chaos there is some form of order, and even in order there is chaos. They go hand in hand, but all turns out good in the end.

I’m almost done with this mask and will be selling it… I have a few other masks that will be selling, starting at $15

Really Cool Advertisements

 

I found this to be really cool to Check out. I think the Oxygo Gym and Motorola was the funniest. 

 

60 Clever Advertisements

http://www.hongkiat.com/blog/60-creative-and-clever-advertisements/

Bride’s Lesson

I walked into a room where a bride sat with the man she was going to marry. She said how happy she was to be with him, and he sat there smiling at her. He was truly in love with her, and I knew he loved her for good and bad. When I looked at her, I could tell she didn’t understand how deep his love was for her, and it upset me to no end. I walked up to her, because I knew I had to say something about this, I could not let it go.

 

That man there loves you. You might not understand but I hope you do, before you break his heart. Love isn’t how someone makes you feel, you can’t just say fuck it because he hurt you once. Love is when you can say I love you after all that mess, and you can put yourself together to work it out to make you as well as him stronger.

You want to know the true test of love, then this is it… You saying “I do” is saying I am taking on this test. This isn’t some kind of game where you are playing "house”, this is someone’s life who they are saying they want to share with you forever. This is where they are telling EVERYBODY, the universe, god, ifa, etc. that you truly love this person with all their faults.

If you don’t like their faults, then tough, it’s apart of who they are. If you can’t handle it then you shouldn’t even bother getting married or even being with them, because you can’t go outside your own comfort zone to love a person for who they truly are. Like I said before, love isn’t about how they make you feel, it’s about loving a person for who they truly are, good or bad. To make sure they are okay and have comfort, and in return, they give you the comfort you need and you are taken care for.

This is truly a two way street, so if you are keep going this one way, then you’ll end up miserable for the rest of your life, and you will hurt him. So I will tell you truthfully don’t fuck this up.

The bride looked at me shockingly but she understood where I was coming from. This wasn’t her first time marrying and she knew she’s been running through men so much before. I walked away from her, because I didn’t want to know later how she hurt him, if she choose to keep it as a high school game.

Changes in life

"All changes, even the most longed for, have their melancholy; for what we leave behind us is a part of ourselves; we must die to one life before we can enter another." - Anatole France -- Post From My iPhone

Self doubt

I am sitting here right now, with butterflies in my stomach. I queasy feeling coming over me, a dark cloud of doubt, that is coming from the far depth of the horizon behind me moving closer above me. I am nervous about everything right now. Thoughts running through my head; wondering if this is the right thing for me to do? Am I sure I want to do this? Do I really want to embark on this journey? I can’t do this, I have so many issues just staying focus for an hour, and how am I supposed to be able to do this constantly? Can I really pull this off? My heart is pounding and racing. This is my dream to do this, so why am I this way? I tore myself a part mentally, financially and physically to get to this point in my life. There is a saying, you fight for your dreams, and you fight others from your acquaintances, business partners, friends and family. When it comes down to it though, the hardest person to fight when it comes to your dreams is yourself. The one person who can keep you from your dreams is the one who looks back at you in the mirror, and sometimes it gets to the point that they can win if you allow them to. But… I choose to not allow the doubt inside me to win. I came too far to try to go back, and I need to get use to the feeling of this new way of life, because this is the life I want to live. I have to stop enjoying the old way of living and sit there wishing for something new. Time is now, not tomorrow, nor yesterday, always now. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPhone

New year choices

"Let this coming year be better than all the others. Vow to do some of the things you've always wanted to do but couldn't find the time." -- Ann Landers This year has been a life altering year for me, from life, money to love. The beginning of the year, I took a stand and decided by mid to end I would work on following my dreams than be a 9-5 drone, wasting my life away, while my ultimate dreams would turn into faded memories of a life I want to have. In the new year of 2009 I celebrated it in at a gala with a wonderful friend, and now I end 2009 on a more so quiet note, working on fixing up my new studio, and getting things ready to fully open my jewelry line, after having a few months hiatus from life to get myself into the right frame of mind. I learned so much about others as well as myself. I learned how to open my heart up again, and just love again. I learned as well how to forgive even when my heart is just has so much hurt, that I would want to grow cold and evil. Even after seeing one of the people who killed a good friend of mine more than 10 years ago; out free to live his life. I took time to stop and decided that I would choose to forgive him, because the last lesson of the year is just about choice. We have a choice in life. We can choose to hate or love. We can choose to lie down and give up, or keep pushing to get something done. We can choose to stay in fear, or face our fear. Regardless of what is happening around us in our environment, we have the greatest option to choose. So this year I choose to continue to open my heart, to love regardless, because one day I know the right one will come to me, and I want to be as ready as I can be. I choose to continue to be successful; even there are pitfalls I will continue my climb up, it might look like I’m all over the place, but trust me I am not. I am just eccentric, but I do know my goal is and I am getting to it. I choose to continue to be happy even through the hard times, as well as forgive others because this life is too precious to go through it any other way. I choose to do things I have always wanted to do, I choose to be myself, stronger than before, as said earlier life is too precious to waste. This next year, I hope all your choices will lead you to greatness, success, true happiness, peace and love. I had to once in my life truly fall, and be aware of it, so I know when I fly I know to keep going up, and if anything tries to make me fall, or I stop flying I know what will happen. Men often become what they believe themselves to be. If I believe I cannot do something, it makes me incapable of doing it. But when I believe I can, then I acquire the ability to do it even if I didn't have it in the beginning. Mahatma Gandhi

To my future king, my futurehusband

To whom it may concern: I understand you are my knight in shining armor, my king, my husband, my hero of the story. I know you were suppose to rescue me from all the evils of the world, and we are suppose to live happily ever after, but after waiting here for you to show up I realized I was wasting so much of my life. So I have left the castle with all the evils, and decided to explore the world, as well as make my dreams come true. I do hope my dream for you to show will come true, and we can live happily ever after. So I hope to bump into you on the path before you get this letter that I left at the castle. Love you always, Your Damsel in distress and always your queen bride


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