Death of a Senator

Death of a Senator I had a dream I was up north at some political luncheon. American flags were draped across the walls to the point you could not see them. Politicians were there talking to each other as they ate their lunch. I sat with a woman. She was frail thin older woman in her late 70’s – early 80’s. She looked so familiar even with her grey nearly white hair. I know this woman but I do not know her name. I discussed how I could use my jewelry to help others and get it out there for the world. She smiled at me and said, “Go to Kennedy, You have to go to Kennedy.” I looked at her with a smile I knew she meant Ted because I saw him in the distance. “Good idea, I will go to him.” I said as I stood up and walked my way toward him. He stood in the corner of the room with a smile on his face, as he knew I was coming to him. Then everything went black. I went back to my normal sleep for about an hour or so. A buzz from my phone woke me up; I have received a message from Associated Press… “Senator Ted Kennedy Dead at age 77 in MA” What the Fuck!?!?!!!! -- Post From My iPhone

"O Fortuna velut Luna" ["O Fortune like the Moon"] Turn around and smell what you don't see Close your eyes ... it is so clear Here's the mirror, behind there is a screen On both ways you can get in. Don't think twice before you listen to your heart, Follow the trace for a new start. What you need and everything you'll feel Is just a question of the deal. In the eye of storm you'll see a lonely dove The experience of survival is the key To the gravity of love. "O Fortuna velut Luna" [Whispers:] [Woman :] The path of excess leads to the tower of Wisdom [Man :] The path of excess leads to the tower of Wisdom Try to think about it... That's the chance to live your life and discover What it is, what's the gravity of love "O Fortuna velut Luna" Look around just people, can you hear their voice Find the one who'll guide you to the limits of your choice. But if you're in the eye of storm Just think of the lonely dove The experience of survival is the key To the gravity of love. "O Fortuna velut Luna" "O Fortuna velut Luna"

Relationships and marriage

I saw the questions asked on a profile, is marriage necessary? Does it make a relationship stronger? What is marriage? Here are my answers.... Go through trails and pure hell with someone and can look at them at the end and still stay by them. When being able to see faults in one's self as well as them and work through it. When both take time to be open minded to be able to understand each other to grow, change and compromise is what makes relationships stronger. Marriage is the symbolic showing that you and the other person have decided to take this responsibility. It is to show the world as well that you have decided to do this that you love some enough to do this. The reasons for so many divorces is because people do not understand how great the magnitude it is to continuously love someone and to be with someone who is not you. It is easier to hate someone and block or delete them out of your life than it is to take time to love them for who they are and understand them. So is it necessary?? That comes down to the couple who are involved if they feel they can truly love each other and find within them if it is necessary to do it symbolic and show the world. -- Post From My iPhone

Just because

Just because… Just because I am black does not mean I know and understand what lil Wayne is saying in his songs, smoke weed, or speak the latest lingo. Just because I am a woman does not mean I want to take anything and everything from a man like a gold digger, or trash talk about all men as if they were dogs. It also does not mean I am an angry feminist. Just because I am young does not mean I am hard headed, stupid or never will learn Just because I speak my mind does not mean I must think I am always right. Just because I look like I have money does not mean I will not freely and willing gives to others. Just because I keep to myself does not mean I am a mean person, or do not like people. Just because I am me does not mean you can stereotype me Sorry but that is not me… -- Post From My iPhone

Dreams that alter

Dreams have been increased and becoming to a point where it has altered me as a person. My last dream was so many rolled up into one; I can remember parts of it. Only two major parts stood out of them. First one, I was out with friends celebrating we went to this one place that was A-list house party. I was with my husband, and my friends. We went out in a huge SUV to place after place enjoying ourselves, then after a few parties we were going to eat at a restaurant. While on the way someone took an ankle bracelet off one of my family members. So I went after the man who took it, and ended up at a house in France. There stood a woman who was the thief’s wife. She did not know where he went off to. I looked at the fireplace mantle and saw something complete strange. There was this putty that turned into something like worms that extended themselves out in the air. I walked closed to the mantle to see they were leeches. We talk about what they were, and found out one had leaped onto the back of my neck. The wife took it off me, and then I looked down to see one was on my pointing finger on my right hand sucking the blood out of me, but it was whatever that was dark and negative that was being taking out. I could feel the leech as if it was real. The leech was expanding and taking another form. I went to the cupboard and found salt and placed it on the leech as it continued until it was done and died. I looked at her and told her I was okay... then I woke up from the dream with my finger in pain; there was a circular indent where it looks like the leech was. The second part I remember was on travel and had come to this large white palace on top of a hill. It was filled with royals, celebs, etc. This place was the largest getaway from reality for them. There was some kind of party/theatrical event and I watched a few old men and people perform. They were all enjoying themselves. A platinum blonde person sat next to me in uniform. They placed their head on me; I was not sure who they were. They wanted me to come with them, but I declined, so they walked away from me. After the activities I remember it was now dawn and I went up to this computer source to get into the list and activate my account. I right before I could finish my name, a woman came up to me asking who I was, and state my purpose of being here. I looked at her firmly and said “My name is Paula Bannerman…” before I can finish my name and title and my purpose, she looked at me and said “well we shall see” She took me by the arm and we proceeded down a long corridor. During the walk I looked at her. She was a white older heavy set woman who was dressed as if she was royalty like a queen. She was dressed in a blue/white dress with a royal cape draping her. I stopped her and said that she needed to fix herself up to be presentable again because she was sloppy. So I adjusted her dress and cape. We continued to talk and then I saw that her necklace was a dull old pearl, so I told her I was a jeweler, and I can create a new way to look, so she can still have her class but not be so dull with those old pearls around her next, she agreed to that. We saw the old men from the night before but they were so into their own world they didn’t remember what happened the night before. By the time we have reached her office to see who I was she was fine with me, and happy that she met me. At her office I was looking around at her jewelry to see what I could remake of it, and then went out for a second to see about tools I could use. When I walked back in, I sensed something was wrong with her. I ran to her, she looked and me and clutched her chest. I touched her immediately to see she was in cardiac arrest. I said to stay calm and that I will call ambulance. I had to go through 2 phones to get a hold of medical help for her. I ran back to her as now she was on the floor and I held her hand. I could feel her pulse and whatever she was going through. When her pulse dropped, I cried and told her she could not die on me, I would not allow it, especially since she has not seen what I was going to create. She started to slip into the underworld but I told her to stay with me. Next thing I know she was saying she will stay as long as she could. She got up and sat on the couch like a queen would. I went outside to help direct the ambulance to where they could get to her. The EMT took her away, as she was being taken out; she left me in charge and saying to run the place because she knew I could do it. I was crying because I just wanted her better that was the only thing on my mind. People started coming up to me asking for help, but my first thing I wanted to do was clear the chaos from her office, and clean up. My daughter came in and started helping me. The queen’s assistance came in asking if there was anything I needed. I said just help clean up for her. Another person came in asking for help and wanting to be excused. I looked at her and thought there had to be a reason so I went and searched for what was the true reason, it turned out they did not want to cook beans, eggplants, peppers and chicken for someone. I looked at that person and said, you were hired to cook, and you will not be excused for cooking a simple dish, and told them to get back to work. Then I woke up again… this time I felt like I wish I could just stop the woman from having the attack from the beginning. It is freaky to see someone just go into cardiac arrest in front of you. -- Post From My iPhone

Wild dream #1

A big event was happening a woman talked about getting ready early for it because of bow frantic people get. So I booked 3 days of rooms before/during/After I walked and saw the Baron he wanted me to go to his place so I did. He wanted me to be nude on his red oak table so he can have me but I said no and walked away i went into a school and Into the first class they were teaching exstacy I was upset because the classroom and teacher were idiots thinking on the terms of flesh and getting high they did not understand the full concept so I left i went into the gym were I saw a friend who was helping the event she was mourning the death of her father. I held her hands as we sat on the floor and helped her get through it. The event was starting we sat down on large bleechers to watch extremely large white table and chairs rolled in with martini glasses filled with glowing liquid people sang and other things the glasses moved I didn't want anything on me so I got off the bleechers and saw the event was not real deal it was just a projection i went into a hall and ended up surrounded by books scrolls ancient documents all the knowledge was right there there was men in there that I personally knew. They were elders scolars and keepers of the scrolls. I realized I was almost old as them they had aged but I did not I still maintained all the info and experience like they have. I went and sat next to Classic to see how he was doing. A young man came in and I told him how he looked like someone I had a crush on a long time ago the young man was shocked by how old I actually was because of the elders. Classic told me how beautiful I was and I was wiser than ever then he touched my shoulders and I gave him a kiss. Next thing I saw family and people coming to seek the elders. -- Post From My iPhone

The calls

Yesterday I got a call saying how I would fail my new life and go back to dc to work as a drone again. Yesterday I got a call that reminded of empty promises that are given to me Yesterday I lay in the heat thinking of how I cannot live like this… Yesterday I decided I came to far to go back I will not allow myself to go back to that life I will continue to grow and become successful I will press forward to where I want to be I will continue to heal and learn I press forward to continuing to open my heart, for love to walk in one day I press forward to see what I can accomplish, as long as I have breath Even now… I drove to DC with a purpose as the rain storms are on my right and the rainbow on my left; I press forward to be an artist, designer. My work will be selling in 2 weeks. Yesterday was the past, and I will not allow the calls get me down. It’s time to work. -- Post From My iPhone

A place where there is peace and love, we call the Garden of Eden It’s a place where people can live where they want in peace. If God created something so spectacular to hold so many people then why would it be just a small place for so many people? What if it’s here in front of us below our feet but we cannot see it because we fight and have so much in us that we cannot focus. Buddha said, what we think we become.. Since Adam and Eve we have thought it was lost, but what if it’s not.. The only thing is that we became shell of flesh and locked onto it through its changes and shifts through time. We became lost in a garden of amazement.

About love

As I sat making jewelry listen to my friend spit hate about white men and empowering of the black woman I thought to myself we now live in a world of some form of hatred I started asking myself why do we keep with these patterns of hate? We disrespect belittle kill and other things because of it but why?? is there something greater that we keep fighting from happening!? the answer is we are hiding out awkening into a new enlighten state of living as a whole as one. Imagine a world where people walked in love instead of putting people down we helped to get to another higher level. some of the most enlightened talked about this kind of love and were killed for it to stop it from spreading. They say love Can be the most powerful tool in the universe. We just do not stop to see its full potential -- Post From My iPhone