30th birthday milestone

Over the month I have been reflecting on so much, since I’m reaching a milestone in my life (30th birthday). My dreams now a days have been more of messages like there’s been too much sadness (supposedly in my “husband”) so I must keep positive now and stay that way. Also it was time to build a house; and remember this is a learning experience, and I had to learn how to be a family with my "husband" as well as hold on to him and don’t let him go. This morning’s message was my money was within the galleries and the events I do, as well as watch my health. I ended up waking up early and I saw an article on US magazine about Mrs. Obama talking about what a woman needs to do to find their right man. She said Cute is good but it does not last, go beyond a title and a checkbook, and see what is in his soul. How does he make you feel? Do you feel completely happy and fully whole? I realized this was the reason I was up so early was to see another message. I thought to myself about who I had dated in the past, and asked the question why was I with them. I was not completely happy with them nor felt fully whole. I know a part of my tried to settle down with them, and then it dawned on me, that I was only lying to myself about being fully happy and feeling fully whole. I thought maybe if I got married overtime I could learn to be happy with them. I look at it today as a fool’s thought. Michelle was right, maybe she should add, look beyond the wedding ring as well. With my milestone around the bend, I use to wish my husband would just come like a knight and shining armor and take me away, now it’s I wish to be able to watch the sunrise, and know that I’m happy and whole. -- Posted from my iPhone

Losing through time

I had a dream where it wasn’t bright, colorful, but a dream that we were losing our elders. We were losing the knowledge that was passed down from generations upon generation. The knowledge was the foundation of family, of love, of just common sense, and also a state of enlighten. As a society can sing songs about sex and the club, but ask someone what the constitution is and what are some parts of it and they will not know. We need to learn and grow… We need our men to be men, not pimps, and boys and we need our women to be the strong supports not hookers, and strippers. Due to time good strong elders are fading, so we must go to them who are still among us, absorb everything they say and go out and become the new elders. We need to teach our children how to be strong and also to show that we are strong and wise. We need to give them knowledge that goes beyond the rap videos, dancing, and greed. We need to show them; teach them how to love, themselves and as well as others. How to show respect, earn respect, also how to uplift others as well as share what they have gained, and to grow from learning. We need to teach from the top of Mt. Zion to the deepest depths of our soul. Let the children know how is it really to be a spirit in human form, to be wise, to be strong.


-- Posted from my iPhone

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Cancer check

In the days of Jim and Tammy Faye Baker scandals of the 80’s, I remember a woman who was truly special to me. When I first met her I knew something was terribly wrong, but a part of me wanted to just be there. We use to watch the classic cartoons like Superman, Pink Panther, Baby Huey and others like it. I enjoyed the times I saw her even though each time she looked weaker and weaker. My mother told me she had cancer, but it didn’t faze me so much because she still watched cartoons with me. I remember one day she looked at me and smiled, she knew I was there just enjoying the moment with her, while the rest of the kids rather do other things. She got up that day and gave me her breakfast, saying I was too skinny to not go without eating, but I did not mind, I was enjoying cartoon watching with her. Last time I had seen her I almost didn’t recognize her, but we still watched cartoons together. One day it all stopped, my mother didn’t really want to tell me she had past, it was more of me asking what happened to the lady who watched cartoons with me? To this day I miss her, even when I see those old classic cartoons my mind goes back to sitting there with her enjoying them. It’s breast cancer awareness month, but to me it’s just a month to remember those who have passed from cancer, and a time to make sure you and your family are cancer free or getting treated. So if it’s been a while get checked. Thank you!! Also if you are in the Washington DC area Friday Oct 1, 2009 to the rest of this month I will have a jewelry display @ Museum of Contemporary Art DC (1054 31st St NW # 9 Washington, DC 20007 inside Canal Square). The pink and white ones that are sold the money will be going to a cancer charity once I find a one that I know the money will help benefit the most. -- Posted from my iPhone