I am sitting here right now, with butterflies in my stomach. I queasy feeling coming over me, a dark cloud of doubt, that is coming from the far depth of the horizon behind me moving closer above me. I am nervous about everything right now. Thoughts running through my head; wondering if this is the right thing for me to do? Am I sure I want to do this? Do I really want to embark on this journey? I can’t do this, I have so many issues just staying focus for an hour, and how am I supposed to be able to do this constantly? Can I really pull this off?
My heart is pounding and racing. This is my dream to do this, so why am I this way? I tore myself a part mentally, financially and physically to get to this point in my life.
There is a saying, you fight for your dreams, and you fight others from your acquaintances, business partners, friends and family. When it comes down to it though, the hardest person to fight when it comes to your dreams is yourself. The one person who can keep you from your dreams is the one who looks back at you in the mirror, and sometimes it gets to the point that they can win if you allow them to.
But…
I choose to not allow the doubt inside me to win. I came too far to try to go back, and I need to get use to the feeling of this new way of life, because this is the life I want to live. I have to stop enjoying the old way of living and sit there wishing for something new. Time is now, not tomorrow, nor yesterday, always now.
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